Well it has been a long time since I have spoken to

most of you. I wanted to give you all an update on my

life, recovery and well being.



Its hard to believe that July 13th, 2007 will mark 2

YEARS for this new beginning. It has seemed a lifetime

to be honest. I have constant physical reminders of my

arrogance and carelessness that night, and really that

whole year-long period of my life before that.



So on with the Update.



I have bought into a Landscaping Maintenance Company,

Down Under Services. I picked one of the hardest

physical jobs, just by chance, needing to get back

into work and off of Disability Insurance. It just

came to me through a friend, after doing home

remodeling for a few months in the summer of 2006,to

do this Daily work/labor and it has pushed my physical

limits time and again. But I have overcome and it's

made me stronger and more durable at working in the

heat and cold(as if San Diego gets Cold).



I started back in October, and in January 2007 was

offered to sign an agreement to take over and own a

large portion of the business and build it even

further. I took over as of March 1st 2007, and it has

been 7 days a week, 12-16 hour days ever since. I took

Easter Sunday off and.... Today!

I absolutely love it though. I have about 40 accounts,

with some pretty good money coming from the few Big

HOA commercial accounts I have. As long as I can

manage the work properly and the 3 guys that work for

me, with summer coming, this thing will take off. I am

having to learn on the go, how to do the accounting

and billing each month, as well as being out there

doing the labor and overseeing what needs to be

accomplished for my customers each visit.

Its definitely not what I imagined even a year ago

doing, still wondering IF I could work, how my hand and

ankle would hold up. It was really painful at first

and once in a while still gets pretty sore, but I am

so happy I am here in life. 



Caffeine, energy drinks, and a lot of fruit snacks get

me through the days.



On the down side of things, I started school last

summer, dropped classes got through 1, started again

in the Fall, got through 1 class, and Dropped out

completely in the Spring Session. Pretty disappointing

personally, but all in due tine, I guess.



I had 3 guitar students, and I was playing here and

there. Not anymore, unfortunately. The feeling didn't

come back, the desire isn't there, mainly because of

the frustration of not having been able to get back

even close to where my ability had been.

So, I let my students go, and really haven't opened my

guitar case, except to play at a ST Pattys Day party

last month. So, no new or old music coming any time

soon.



Lets end it on a HIGH note. I have a wonderful

girlfriend, Kate, who is finishing school in June, at

USCD with an Ecology degree. Through the ups and

downs, daily problems, mine and hers, our strength and

weaknesses, set backs and triumphs, we have managed to

stay together and be there for each other.



At the end of the day, I can honestly say, I am so

lucky to have her in my life. She has stuck through it

all, the uncertainty of me even living through the

first couple of days. Putting her life and dreams on

hold to see me through my pain and struggle, physical

rehab and constant uncertainty of what life would

become for me, for us.

There have been times where I have been a miserable,

angry, self loathing, depressed piece of shit for the

most part. Pissed at myself for what happened to me,

what I did to myself, is how I see it. Only one person

Really saw that and had to deal with it. And she stuck

by me, dealt with my selfish ass and did all that she

could to help me through it. No one really takes a

moment to think about how much Kate has helped me get

here.

I forget myself, too often. But I am reminded today,

and wanted to share with you.



And that brings us back to the present, living,

laughing, sharing.



I hope to hear from you all at some point, and how

your lives have been. Until then,



Thank you for support, friendship, and love.